Wow, how does time fly? You feel like you have a grasp on things. You feel like you can keep a head of the curve and cruise on through, then bang, Life happens. It’s something we all have felt and experienced through out years on this ball of noble gases, elements, and critters. 2012 was no exception to this. I continued this very blog, started a podcast, and kept up the writing. I attended 3 conventions and met so many new people, got diagnosed with diabetes. Just in the nick of time for the divines only know what could have happened it I had of kept going the way I was. A perspective on life I couldn’t get any more focused and life teaches this ol’bear one more thing.
Now we are in 2013 and a time of rejuvenation has begun, rebirth, new things are begun, old habits will die hard. An all in all we will struggle until the next stage in out lives begin, that is life. An expanding tome started at our first screaming glimpse into the light of our first day til the fading light of our last. Grimm huh? not really because all that life in the middle is what you want the meat of your story, all those characters, all those action scenes and twist and subplots. This is why I made the 3 resolutions I made this year as the year of the snake was born writhing along the stoke of midnight.
- I will get in shape, build my body back up to what it was, and be healthier.
This was not only for my sake but for my Nephews and nieces sake. he told me something at my mothers funeral that shook me and I will never forget his words, I may put them from the forefront of my mind but they are never gone. A midst all tears shed by friends and family, and oppressing grief. My 11 year old nephews says to me and my aunts as he looked at those expressing their sorrow and says’,
“If Uncle Jason wasn’t here, or if he was out of control and crying. I don’t think I could handle this.”
This was probably the one thing said to me that hole day as I laid my mother to rest, that really felt like something. Nothing against those who came to me in my time of need, but this child, gave me something I thought I would never know or understand. What being a father, or in this case a father figure is all about, and I owe him and his sisters and brothers to be strong, healthy and the gnarliest uncle this side Gary Busey in Silver Bullet.
- To be better with money. Saving, spending, just the whole bit.
- To go back to school and finish what I started almost a decade ago.
Money, everyone says but hey who doesn’t want more money? As we all money it takes money to make money, and the last. Well its school and knowledge is power to date myself with a Schoolhouse rock quote. Also I have fucking losing and not making through college in my youth as I should have hurt me, and hurt those who believed in me. I am a little late on the resolve and maturity thing but its never to late to learn from your mistakes. that is what a New Year is all about growth, rebirth, and new beginnings. So let’s all do this thing right shall we and so 2013 it’s just another chapter in a very, very long harrowing story.